I Advise You That I Miss You On Mother’s Day

The GodfatherDear Mom,

I am writing to wish you a Happy Mother’s Day.

I have never been able to say those words to you directly, but I’m sure they have WiFi in Heaven so you can read this.

I was three years old when you died, so I never had the opportunity to create a homemade Mother’s Day gift, write you a poem about how much you mean to me, or take you out to a fancy dinner to celebrate your special day.

You didn’t get to find out that I grew up to be a writer, and proudly boast to your friends that some production company gave your son a big check for some silly script he wrote, or give me feedback on anything I’ve ever written.  You never got to see one of my movies, watch me on TV, or listen to me on the radio.

We never got to see if I was the Mamma’s Boy everyone assumes I’d be.  You never got to tell me what you thought about any girl I was seeing, cry at my wedding, or console me after my divorce.

I was so young when you died that I sadly have absolutely no memories of you, Mom, and that bothers me so much.  To make things worse, we never talked about you when I was growing up.  When Mary Lou called me last Sunday to tell me it was the anniversary of your death, it was the first time I was ever aware of what day you were taken from us.

I’m not sure why we were raised this way.  I know so little about you.  I do have two photos of you, however, on my mantel.  One is of you and Daddy cutting your wedding cake.  The other is of the two of you sitting on the porch of your Summer place.

SnoopyYou were so beautiful, and I’m always pleased when people look at the photos and tell me how much I look like you.  I know you loved Dad, but I’m glad I got your looks.

I just wanted you to know that I’m doing okay.  Your little boy grew up to be a somewhat well adjusted man.  You’d really like The House on the Hill, and I think you would enjoy coming up to Maine for visits.

I know that there is an emptiness in my life because I grew up without you, but I am doing the best I can to adapt and make my way in the world.

I advise you that I miss you on Mother’s Day, that I think about you often, and that I love you.  Happy Mother’s Day.

Your loving son,


About Austin

Native New Yorker who's fled to the quiet life in Maine. I write movies, root for the Yankees, and shovel lots of snow.
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24 Responses to I Advise You That I Miss You On Mother’s Day

  1. Joyce M. Rose-Harris says:

    Beautifully said.

  2. Teela Hart says:

    This is so beautiful Austin!

  3. That was lovely. As a mother myself, it makes my heart happy.

  4. Aw Austin! What a beautiful letter to your mother. She will be very proud indeed. For what a fine son she has! Great photos too! (You look very cheeky!)

    • Austin says:

      Thanks, Amanda. Welcome back. The Queen finally allowed you internet access? How nice of the Royal Family! I was a cute kid, wasn’t I? 🙂

      • Absolutely! So cute 🙂 Unfortunately the queen has only allowed me a lousy 5 minutes 😦 she gave me a scalding for running up a huge internet bill on my phone, and therefore, I have to wait until I get the internet at my house (which will be at the end of the week!). I thought I’d quickly check in, and see how my favourite philosopher is getting on. Sadly, it’s just a fly by visit. Once my internet is up and running, you’ll be the first to know but before the queen makes me get on my hands and knees again, and scrub her floor until I can see my reflection, I shall lead an internet free existence! *sobs*.

      • Austin says:

        This is why us Americans fought for our independence from England. You’re welcome to come join us on the fun side of the pond. 🙂

      • As I scrub the Queens floors until they squeak, the fun side of the pond sounds evermore appealing… *jumps into a rubber dinghy and paddles energetically* I’ll see you in a….year! 🙂

      • Austin says:

        Silly. I would send Gary the Gargoyle for you! 🙂

  5. markbialczak says:

    Beautiful letter, Austin. Your mom knew this every day of your life, I am sure.

  6. susielindau says:

    Amazing letter Austin. She has been n your heart all the time. She would be very proud of her son.

    • Austin says:

      Thank you, Susie. And thanks for sharing this on Twitter. It’s making me smile how many people have read this post. Mom would be proud. 🙂

  7. ksbeth says:

    beautiful and bittersweet. i’m so sorry you lost her so early, but she is watching over you and in your heart forever, have no doubt of that, austin.

  8. So handsome 🙂
    And a very touching Mother’s Day wish!

  9. Just Claudia says:

    What a beautiful letter. I’m sure your mother is very proud of you 🙂

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