I suffered from
An odd medical condition
That the doctors
Never could diagnose.
I used to get
Really hot,
Start to sweat,
See spots,
And sometimes
Pass out.
It often happened
When I was in
A large group,
So I always assumed
It was
A panic attack.
My first memory
Of it happening
Was in third grade.
We were on the bleachers
In the auditorium,
Practicing for
The Music Festival.
The spotlights
Were on us.
The entire grade
Packed together
Like Catholic sardines.
And I passed out,
Falling off those
Ancient bleachers.
The Nuns
Probably thought
I was possessed.
It happened
More frequently
When I started High School,
And had to take
The Subway to school.
New York City,
Rush hour,
Not the best place
To be
When you had
A tendency
To pass out
In crowds.
I saw several doctors,
Who could never
Quite determine the cause
Of the problem.
I’ll always remember,
What one doctor said,
Though.
He declared
That my heart
Was too large
For my chest cavity.
Nothing ever came
Of that, however.
The issue simply
Went away.
Lately, I’ve been wondering
If my heart
Might be
Too big again.
It would explain
How it
Has out muscled
My brain
For control
Of my body.
What if my heart
Is too big
For me
To ever find
Enough love
To fill it?
Will I start
Passing out again?
Or will I simply
End up
All alone,
Wondering
What happened
To my heart?
A big heart, in a figurative way, is a good thing. She’ll be lucky when you find her.
Nice poem:)
Thanks. I’ve always wondered by the fainting spells just stopped…
Maybe the rest of you caught up?
Maybe…
You will find love! You are just to nice of a person not to! The good guy ends up with the girl I promise 🙂
Thanks, April…
Austin this is tugging my heartstrings ! It makes me a little sad too . I hope all of your dreams do come true & that you find forever love ! 💓
Thanks…
loving all of this; yes your heart ( and mine) is too big but hey some of us are lucky that way). Maybe you should have a seperate blog for your poems, like i do.
Anyway when are you going to start on Valentines day?or the Superbowl? or spring is around the cornere stuff/ or better yet let us know how seamus and gary are enjoying the new year. Have the All Hallows crew gone to the bahamas for holidays? And hows Mayor mc cheese fairing in this weather of yours.
I like mixing the poems in with all the other stuff. This blog is all about my Deep Thoughts…
And to think i spend $$$ for shrink sessions, when all i had to be like you…i suppose a change is as good as a holiday….
Being like me is awesome. Go for it!
well we are both Capricorns. Smart, sexy, sassy ( in a quiet way) and super talented…..
Go on…
You are so adorable, as am i..
I can vouch for me… 🙂
ha ha ha ha ha ha ha stop your making my sides hurt from the laughter…..
Aw 🙂
I’m glad you liked it. 🙂
I’d like to think of your heart being so full of love already, that’s why it’s to big for you. But when (and yes I say when, not if) you find love, it will be set free and shared with the one who deserves all you have to give.
Thank you. That’s very sweet. 🙂
You’re quite welcome 🙂
Austin, when you get in one of these moods, my worry about you is that you suffer from a little brain. Remember what I’ve told you, I found my dear wife Karen when I was 45 and divorced …
Just joshing about the brain, of course. Your brain is as normal as your heart. Don’t start worrying about that, please.
🙂
My brain is plenty big!
really mark. well maybe there is hope for me and Austin ( and others) yet
I have a backwards heart, Austin. Cross my heart and hope to live. All hearts, even the unusual ones, can love and be loved. (I found my latest love in my late 50’s.)
Good to know. Thanks for the mini pep talk. 🙂
no, it is just the right size. like the grinch whose heart grew 3 sizes in one day, yours is just the right size for you.
Thanks for the pep talk. 🙂
I love this, I love the way it reads like a story, yet is still poetic.
P.S: I spent 18 years in a rotten marriage and reached the ripe old age of 48 before I found my true love….don’t give up just yet 🙂
Take care, Kimmie x
Thank you for the pep talk. Glad you liked the poem. 🙂