I had the wrong dream again last night, Modern Philosophers.
This isn’t the first time this has happened, and it’s actually happening with alarming frequency lately.
I dreamed that I was with my ex-wife. J brought me out to a cabin in the middle of the woods, and she explained to me that I was going to live there on my own now.
Our marriage was over, and I shouldn’t try to contact her or attempt to get back together. The cabin was my home now, and the sooner I accepted that, the faster I could get on with the rest of my life.
In this nightmare, I woke up in the middle of the night, reached across the bed for J and realized she was not there. That was when I remembered that she had left me, and I was all alone in a cabin in the middle of snow covered woods.
To add to my broken heart, I had the realization that I was never going to see my beloved black cat Banky again because J had kept him in the divorce.
When I woke up this morning, Modern Philosophers, I was furious about the dream. I haven’t spoken to J in years, I never think about her, and I don’t long to be with her.
However, I am openly mourning the fact that The Girl Who Moved Away will not speak to me, and this childish move on her part has me completely unnerved.
If I’m going to dream about anyone abandoning me in the middle of nowhere, why can’t it at least be the right person? I want to dream about The Girl Who Won’t Speak To Me. At least that way, I’ll get to see her and interact with her.
If I’m going to have a nightmare, let it be about the woman who is crushing my heart and breaking my spirit.
Why the hell am I dreaming about someone whose heartbreak I’ve long since gotten over?
And Banky? Why did I have to dream about my beloved black cat who left me back in July? Is my mind trying to drive me mad?
Why is The Girl Who Left Town With My Heart refusing to even face me in my dreams? I don’t understand it, and I’m really pissed off about it.
Of course, these complaints are falling on deaf ears. The silent treatment continues…
The Return of the Modern Philosopher 
Cabin fever in your own home? Oh creative one, you have no further to look than your mirror to see what you have to do. The moment you let go of what you want to see, that’s the moment you’ll see what’s supposed to be. 🙂
Ummm….
What can I say, some day’s I’m psychic and some day’s I couldn’t find my keys if they were on the table in front of me. It’s up to you to guess which day this is. 🙂
I think I know…
I would think you would like to dream about some nubile young chippy who… insert wild fantasy of your choice. But I am sorry to hear about the cat. This post makes me think of an extremely dirty dream I had about a fellow who was in the play with me recently. I tell you, if dreams are any indication, that man’s wife is a lucky woman. Oh dear, I’ve just made it all about me again. I really must get back to my own blog. I wish you pleasanter dreams.
I want to dream about her because I love her, not because she’s young and nubile…
I was just trying to take your mind off your troubles. Sorry if I offended you.
Not at all.
Ok ummm I am not a dream reader or anything but maybe your subconscious is trying to let you know that you made it through heartbreak once and you can do it again? Somehow you mind wants you to know you’re strong enough?
Maybe. We shall see I guess…
🙂
Well, dreams are your subconscious talking to you. Often telling you what you really want. Hugs, Barbara
But I don’t want my ex-wife. I want The Girl Who Moved Away…
LOL. Well, it sounds like a conversation you need to have with your self conscious. Hugs, Barbara
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I had a dream last night about someone who was a close friend for many years and somehow faded out of my life. I don’t remember most of my dreams, but I remembered this one. She was standing at the end of a long hallway, facing me, but I couldn’t reach her. Some people never fully leave our minds, I guess, especially when there is no closure.
I had closure with the person I dreamed about, but not with the person I wanted to dream about. It’s frustrating!
I understand.
What you really want is closure with both of them, Austin, and that’s why you’re dreaming about the woman with which you’ve found it and not the woman with which you think you haven’t. That’s your subconscious telling you what next step is best. My take on it, anyway. And the beloved Banky showed up as a sign that it’s OK with him that you have Cali and Luna to make you happy now.
I really wish The Girl would return to her job as my best friend. With a winter like this one, I could use her ability to soothe me and keep me laughing…
She obviously needed the space for some reason, though, Austin.
But to give me absolutely no indication of why isn’t fair. She knows it’s killing me, and it’s not like her to be mean to me…
Let’s look at this situation through her eyes. What may have predicated this action that you’re not taking into account at this point?
Poor Austin – I’m sorry 😦
Thanks, Emma. You’re sweet. 🙂