It’s almost 90 degrees as I welcome you to the Friday Night Think Tank, Modern Philosophers. I’ve worked over 50 hours this week, and I plan to head back to the office tomorrow morning for a few more hours of overtime fun.
Yes, I’m a dedicated worker bee and I need the extra money, but I’ve been practically living at work all week because there is air conditioning (unlike at The House on the Hill) and I’m trying to keep my mind distracted.
You see, Modern Philosophers, I’m dealing with a long, dark tea-time of the soul and I’m desperate to keep the dark clouds at bay.
I keep telling myself that if I work every waking hour of the day, my brain can’t drift off to the bad place where it’s repeatedly been told not to tread.
It’s a great plan, but as history has proven, no one puts Austin’s brain in the corner.
So, I thought I’d turn to you guys for a little advice and a lot of distractions. Will you join me in the Think Tank for some Deep Thoughts and friendly chatter?
Bring some ice cream. We’re gonna need it to beat the heat!
This week’s topic: How do you know when you’re supposed to fight for what you want, and when it’s time to just accept that you cannot win?
When something bothers me, I have a tendency to bottle up my feelings rather than risk rocking the boat. The reason I do this is because when I finally stand up for myself, things never seem to go well.
Now, however, I make sure to keep my anger under control, select words that are direct but not hurtful, and I ask someone I trust to listen to what I plan to say so I can make sure I’m not out of line.
Even with all the precautions, Modern Philosophers, it still seems like whenever I stand up for myself, I end up the loser. So I tend to keep my mouth shut.
Recently, however, I found myself in a situation where I had no choice but to put my foot down, take a stand, and risk losing someone very important to me. This was not a fight I wanted, but I needed to stand up for myself in order to ensure that the future would be so bright I’d have to wear shades.
Now, of course, everything has gone to @#$%. Just as it always does whenever I draw a line in the sand and pray that the other party will back down for once.
I don’t know what to do now. The other person will not talk to me.
This is not someone I can lose, but what do I do when the other party refuses to engage? Do I keep trying to make contact and hope that the walls finally come down, or do I just accept that the silence means I need to give up?
My instinct is to keep fighting, but following my instincts is how I got into this situation.
It’s so hot, this post isn’t making any sense, and I just need someone to sit me down and help me think clearly. Who’s got some words of wisdom for a confused and exhausted Modern Philosopher?
Sorry for the rambling. Want to follow me on Pinterest anyway?