California Dreamin’ On Such A Blizzard Day

Maine, blizzard, Hollywood, screenwriting, humor, Modern PhilosopherI stopped trying to figure out Hollywood a long time ago, Modern Philosophers.

After my movie deal with Dr Dre fell apart due to circumstances beyond my control, I realized I’d had enough of California.  That was when I decided to move to Maine.

Even though I’ve put an entire continent between me and the Steal Your Soul State, Hollywood still holds some sway over me.

After all, I still want to be a screenwriter and create TV series.  Only so much of that can be done in Maine, the state where it never stops snowing.

This morning, while I was out in a blizzard, clearing another ridiculous amount of snow from my driveway, my thoughts drifted to the left coast.

Surprisingly, I wasn’t fantasizing about life where it’s always sunny and snow has been legally banned from the weather report.

No, I was thinking about Hollywood because it had once again given me hope.

Maine, blizzard, Hollywood, screenwriting, humor, Modern PhilosopherNow I’ve learned my lesson over the years, Modern Philosophers.  Hollywood is always trying to lure me in with its kind words about my writing, and promises of projects moving into production.

I used to be a naive dreamer who fell for every pick up line Hollywood purred in my general direction.

After having my dreams crushed a dozen times too many, I finally put up some walls, unleashed the cynicism, and told Hollywood to put up or shut up.

Because of this, I’ve given up any hope of my TV series about life in college becoming a reality, or seeing another of my screenplays go into production.

I stopped writing the series.  I put my screenplays back in storage.

I kind of just stopped believing that my dreams would come true.  Because you can’t get hurt if you don’t get your hopes up, right?

I’ve been binge watching Parks and Recreation, and whenever I watch a really good show or movie, it gets my creative juices flowing.  So it was only natural that my thoughts would drift to my own TV series, and how cool it would be to have a chance to create something even half as good as Parks and Rec.

For a moment, I took down my walls, and fired off an angry message to Hollywood asking if there was any news on my series.

I shouldn’t have done that.  It was wrong to let down my guard and allow Hollywood another chance to do damage, but I’m just so damn tired of working so hard at anything other than my dream job.

To my surprise, my producer wrote back that he was working on a breakdown of the Pilot, and trying to find the money to get the TV series made.

He implored me to keep writing more episodes.

Maine, blizzard, Hollywood, screenwriting, humor, Modern PhilosopherI was so confused.  I’d waited for months for any word for him, but had heard nothing.  I’d gotten so frustrated that I’d stopped writing it, and allowed myself to believe it wasn’t as good as I thought it was.

I’d pushed my dreams of a writing career into a dark corner where they couldn’t disappoint me any longer.  Only to find out that I should be hard at work on my TV series.

Not wanting to be hurt, yet again, by my crazy California dreamin’, I have taken some time to think about this latest come on by Hollywood.

It was 3 degrees earlier when I was out in a blizzard shoveling the driveway.  What do you think I decided to do about my writing dreams?

As soon as my body thaws, I will be hard at work on Episode 4 of my TV series.  Even though it makes perfect sense to want to protect myself from being disappointed again, it’s also a little crazy to just give up on a dream.

Especially when it just won’t stop snowing…

About Austin

Native New Yorker who's fled to the quiet life in Maine. I write movies, root for the Yankees, and shovel lots of snow.
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19 Responses to California Dreamin’ On Such A Blizzard Day

  1. ksbeth says:

    i say keep writing as you are good at it and enjoy it, but don’t rely on hollywood to come through for you, as they make lots of promises they never keep. that being said, if you write your story, you could always make it into a great book and not have to rely on them, could even self-publish. what do you think? if they come looking to buy the rights, so be it –

    • Austin says:

      I’m just so tired of waiting for the dream to become a reality. I’ve put in so much hard work, and I want one of these projects to finally take the next step…

  2. As Churchill said, success is going from failure to failure without being dispirited (or some similar phrase). It’s the hardest thing in the world to get something made into film – fiction or otherwise. One of my books was going to be turned into a 6-part TV documentary, got right through script treatments, a TV channel that was very interested and so forth. Then foundered on lack of funds. Naturally. I think it’s the fate of about 99 percent. There are so many hurdles. Keep pushing!

  3. cbiz50 says:

    Keep writing…don’t “build that wall”

  4. JT Twissel says:

    You’ve probably gotten a lot further than a lot of writers. So I think a little of pat on the back is necessary. (it’s stormy and grey in California right now.)

  5. markbialczak says:

    It’s your project, Austin, and you must get it from mind to words!

  6. AAristizabal says:

    Keep writing! It’s what makes you soul happy; even if Hollywood is too cynical or too slow to move at your pace!

    • Austin says:

      I’ll always keep writing, but I don’t want to spend so much creativity on episodes of a TV series that might not get made. I will at least go back to work on Episode 4 since it’s totally outlined on my laptop. 🙂

      • AAristizabal says:

        You don’t know for sure if it will get made or not. If it doesn’t become a TV Series, it might transform into a movie plot; or even a novel. Keep writing, and see how it can become real!

      • Austin says:

        It definitely has been fun and cathartic in college. I met my ex-wife back then and some of my best friends. It’s been a blast revisiting that time in my life…

  7. Adele Ankers says:

    I absolutely sympathise with your position. So sorry you have been crushed by false hope, I know how disheartening it is but resilience is key when pursuing a dream! I have had moments of uncertainty on my own journey but I would rather keep trying for every single day of the rest of my life… then, at least if I don’t make it, I can say that I tried and tried HARD! Always give yourself your best chance. You’re destined to do this, keep going! Positive vibes. 🙂

    • Adele Ankers says:

      P.S. I do realise that the whole “keep going” sentiment can induce some eye-rolling when you feel stuck in a rut, but deep down, I would want that extra push of encouragement because who wants to give up on a dream? You certainly don’t. What if tomorrow delivered great news that changed the course of your life? So unpredictable and uncertain but also brilliantly exciting. Fingers crossed for you.

      • Austin says:

        I would never roll my eyes at any encouragement or advice from you. As I know you understand, being a writer can be frustrating, but it can also leave one feeling completely helpless. I have no control over what happens to the stories once I write them. I’m not a part of the process as they work on finding an investor and put together budgets. I hate being out of the loop and feeling so powerless.

      • Adele Ankers says:

        I understand. Unfortunately, that part of the process is unlikely to change. It’s awful to be waiting on something that you want so desperately. I know you don’t feel like pouring your energy into something that may end up with a knock back but there isn’t much of an alternative at this stage, unless you give up altogether, which you’re too talented to even consider. Do it for yourself!

      • Austin says:

        Thanks for the pep talk. I will continue to work on the series. It has been a blast returning to the good old days of NYU. I’d love for you to read one of the scripts at some point…

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