I can’t remember the friend’s name, or come to think of it, if it was even someone I used to know. It might have just been a character from a movie, TV show, or book.
The point of it all, though, was that I should always look on the bright side of life, even on the darkest of days.
The days have been pretty damn dark lately.
When I got furloughed from my job on Friday, I spiraled down the rabbit hole of full time panic, and when I came out the other side, there was nothing but dark clouds waiting.
I was already stressed that I could get sick, and that people I knew and cared about could be infected or maybe even die. Now I had the added worry about whether I’d have enough money to keep a roof over my head and food on the table.
It was a very difficult time for me, my anxieties, and the poor cats who had to watch me ride a roller coaster of emotions as I tried to get a handle on the days ahead.
Then I heard that little voice in my head reminding me to look for the silver lining.
Of course, the voices in my head are always babbling about something, but somehow, the ultra positive silver lining one found a way to get my attention. Its message became an ear worm that I could not ignore. Even when I went out into the snow in hopes of silencing it and giving myself just a moment’s peace.
So I did what any person on the brink of madness would do: I relented.
There had to be something positive in this quarantine. With so many negative thoughts bouncing around inside my skull, I needed to find that one shining light on which I could focus my attention and prevent me from tumbling headfirst into the abyss of despair.
The answer was so obvious I couldn’t believe I missed it.
I can finally be a full time writer!
It’s always been my dream, but I’ve never been able to chase it because the common sense side of my brain always pointed out that I am a one income household, so a full time job with a steady paycheck and benefits always had to be the priority.
After all, I can’t pay the mortgage with a short story, no matter how well-written.
I’m not allowed to go to work, so the rational side of my brain needs to take a much needed vacation, and allow the creative side to take the wheel.
I’m not even supposed to leave the house, unless it’s to go for a run or pick up groceries, so there’s no better time to go Full Writer Guy.
Step One was to bring this blog back to life. Back in the old days, this was a daily publication, but I haven’t had the time or energy to devote to it. Now I’ve got nothing but time, and blogging on the regular again has reminded me how much I’ve missed it.
This blog is a great way to get my creative juices flowing, and interacting with my fellow Modern Philosophers in the comments section helps to stave off the Coronavirus Cabin Fever.
Step Two was to reach out to people about projects that have been in limbo. I know that they have time now, too, so I wanted to light a fire under them about older screenplays that haven’t gotten anywhere. We might not be able to make them at the moment, but we can get excited about them again, get other people excited about them, and be primed to act once the lock down is lifted.
Step Three was to dust off the novel I started to write, but abandoned because life got in the way. You might remember that I decided to turn this year’s Halloween short story into a novel. I wrote six chapters, but then put it on the back burner.
I’m happy to report that I am back to work on it. I’ve been rereading what I’ve written, and it’s got me pumped to keep going. I was amazed at how easily I slipped back into the flow of the story to edit those chapters.
It was like meeting up with old friends after a long absence. After just a short time together, it was right back to the way it had always been. Hopefully, I will have plenty of progress to report on in the month ahead.
So maybe something good did come out of this confusing, stressful, and scary time. I’m better adapting to life at home as a full time writer. Hope you are all staying safe.
Have you found any silver linings in this awful situation?