It’s Always Cooler In The Shadow Of Gargoyle Wings

Businessman on Deserted Island --- Image by © Paul Barton/CorbisIt was one of those days, Modern Philosophers, where I wanted to unchain myself from my desk, rip off my working stiff toga, and flee to The House on the Hill.

I needed to be alone, but that’s pretty much impossible in an office full of people.  Of course, I still manage to find a way to be lonely there amongst the masses.

It has been incredibly hot, but as I’m typing this, the sky has gone almost completely black.  Thunder is rumbling menacingly not so far from here.  The wind has picked up substantially.  The trees are swaying to the time of the storm on the horizon.

The heat does not help when I’m having a bad day.  It makes everything seem much worse, and it messes with the calming Deep Thought process.

As soon as I got home tonight, I went up to the roof.  I know that heat rises and that being on top of The House on the Hill would only position me closer to the Sun, but I also knew that I would find solace and comfort there.

It’s always cooler in the shadow of Gargoyle wings.

Gargoyle nightGary the Gargoyle didn’t move from his usual perch.  He could sense my mood, and knew silence was what I needed.  He simply turned to face me, and then opened his mighty wings.  I sat beneath them, and allowed the shadow to protect me from the heat and hide me from the rest of the world.

I have always been a loner, Modern Philosophers.  It’s a badge I used to wear with shame, but I’ve learned to take some pride in it.  It’s not that I like being alone, but sometimes, it just seems like that’s what’s best for everyone involved.

One of the reasons I’ve always wanted to be a writer is because the idea of being my own boss and working alone is very appealing.

I can definitely be a charming, people person, but I’ve always found that most folks just don’t “get me”.  I’m an acquired taste, which seems to eventually sour and ultimately turn into an allergic reaction.

My strong attachment to The Girl Who Ran Off With My Heart is deeply rooted in the fact that she has gotten me right from the start.  Clearly, she is some sort of freak of nature because we have always clicked.  Rare is the person who clicks with the round Modern Philosopher peg in this otherwise square hole world.

A man alone in an open-plan officeToday was a day where the absence of my closest friend and partner in crime was glaring.  Work was very stressful and there was no ear to hear my tale of woe, no shoulder on which to cry, and no hand to squeeze mine tight and make me feel like I wasn’t all alone in an office of eighty people.

I try to lose myself in my work, in hopes that time will fly, but inevitably, time is delayed on the tarmac and takes forever to make an extremely bumpy landing at 5:00.

I am home now.  Where I feel safe.  Where being alone is the norm.  Outsiders cannot get to me and cause me stress.  I can flee to the roof and not have to answer to anyone.

A storm is coming, but I don’t care.  I’m safe up here in the shadow of Gargoyle wings…

About Austin

Native New Yorker who's fled to the quiet life in Maine. I write movies, root for the Yankees, and shovel lots of snow.
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43 Responses to It’s Always Cooler In The Shadow Of Gargoyle Wings

  1. Jennifer says:

    This makes me sad! Usually I am full of giggles while reading:(

  2. Reblogged this on By the Mighty Mumford and commented:
    THIS IS SO SWEET!!!! 🙂

  3. NAW….we’re just happy that the REALLY SUCCESSFUL WRITERS like you…are just like us…on the inside! 🙂

  4. raphus2014 says:

    Enjoyed this and related to some of those inner thoughts. And, have just ordered a gargoyle. He’ll love my roof!

  5. susielindau says:

    I love Gary! Maybe he can shelter me at my house on the hill in Niwot.
    I often feel the same way. I think it’s the artistic creative side of us that people don’t get.

  6. grannyK says:

    I am sorry to hear you had such a rough day. I hope your big break will come soon!

  7. ksbeth says:

    sorry it was such a hard day on so many levels (no pun intended), hopefully tomorrow will be cooler, calmer and better. )

  8. Rebekah says:

    There will not only be this one girl who got you. You get you. Your readers get you (at least the part that the see of you, the parts you reviel.) Hope tomorrow is better. Finished all three books. Started on a new one.

  9. D. Parker says:

    To be alone is to breathe salty air… I understand, I like my own company and don’t need to be amused. I won’t say I hope today is better, just that each day is what it is. I like this writing just as much as your silly ones, different, but still amazing.

  10. rowanaliya says:

    I hear you buddy. Lone wolf society. It isn’t always easy, but ultimately worth it. We get a view many don’t. It is our job to help reveal that to the masses. We are the pioneers of life. Know that the bad day will come to end and you can wake up to a fresh one.

  11. cat9984 says:

    Awwww – it makes me want to hug you

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