Where Are The Christmas Cookies?

Christmas, food, humor, Modern PhilosopherI don’t miss being married, Modern Philosophers, but every year at Christmas, I’m reminded of something important I miss from my marriage…

My mother-in-law’s Christmas cookies.

Just thinking about them as I write this, more than fifteen years after my divorce, makes my mouth water and my stomach growl.

I’d never had anything as delicious before I tried them, and nothing since has even come close.  Every year, they’d arrive in the mail.  A half dozen or so tins filled with all sorts of cookies.

Once she got to know which ones were my favorites, she would make sure my tins overflowed with those varieties.

Sure, I always shared with J (after all, her Mom was the one making the treats), but even she understood that certain cookies were meant for me, and it was in her best interest to stay clear of them.

My mother-in-law also sent me amazing Christmas presents every year, but I honestly looked forward to the cookies more than any other gift in her holiday care packages.

Growing up, there were never any homemade cookies at Christmas.  In fact, I don’t remember there really being any baking done at any time of the year.  When there were sweets in the house, they were store bought.

Christmas, food, humor, Modern PhilosopherI had no idea what I was missing out on until I started dating J, and her Mom started sending the homemade goods.

I remember thinking, “So this is what family life could be like!”

Christmas was never the same after that.  I did my best to make those cookies last as long as possible, but they were too delicious to resist.

Thankfully, even after the divorce, J’s Mom continued to send me cookies every Christmas for the next several years.

I don’t think I could have handled losing both my marriage and my Christmas cookies.  I’ll be forever grateful for the way she continued to bake for me until I was finally able to move on.

Over the years, I’ve tried to find cookies similar to my former mother-in-law’s, but all my searches ended in disappointment.

Christmas, food, humor, Modern PhilosopherPeople often ask why I’m sad at Christmas, and I tell them it’s because I have no one special with whom to share the holiday.

But the truth is, I’m depressed because I miss my Christmas cookies.  You never know what you have until you lose it…

Is there something that you miss from Christmas past?

About Austin

Native New Yorker who's fled to the quiet life in Maine. I write movies, root for the Yankees, and shovel lots of snow.
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16 Responses to Where Are The Christmas Cookies?

  1. Ocean Bream says:

    This is actually one of the sweetest things I have read in a long time. What a kind soul your ex mother in law is, and how impactful it must have been that you remember those cookies over a decade later. Just goes to show, doesn’t it, that delicious kindnesses never go unnoticed by their recipients.

    • Austin says:

      Amen. Losing mt wife’s family in the divorce really hit me hard. Having come from a not so perfect home life, it was nice to be a part of such a large, loving family for all those years…

  2. A few decades ago, there were friends and bosses that were impossible to buy Christmas gifts for. What do you get someone who has everything? I loved baking, so I would bake a half dozen varieties of cookies plus make homemade fudge. I would purchase beautiful Christmas tins, buy festive cupcake holders to place my homemade goodies in, assemble them with meticulous care and hand calligraphy a card to place in each tin. The people that received these special tins were extremely surprised to find out after eating my delicious treats that I had made them. I guess you could say, I miss making these gift packages because they gave me such joy to see friends/coworkers extremely appreciative of the time and effort taken to put these treats together.

  3. Austin, Sounds like a good plan for 2021. I’ll start digging up my old recipes.

  4. lydiaschoch says:

    Your former mother-in-law sounds like a nice person. 🙂 I’m glad you had those cookies.

  5. beth says:

    maybe next year, you can make one kind and take part in a cookie exchange )

  6. grannyK says:

    I miss my family something fierce at Christmas. I lost my son and husband just days after Christmas, so I fight that yearly depression battle as well. But, I do have my other 2 children here and we make the best of it. If finances allow, I would love to make some cookies or some other treat and ship it next year. Let’s make Christmas 2021 a special one for Austin!

  7. markbialczak says:

    Some day you will discover some you like as well, Austin.

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