It’s Day Infinity Plus One of the Stay at Home, Shelter in Place, Everyone Unleash Your Inner Introvert Order to help combat the spread of COVID 19 aka Coronavirus.
When I woke up this morning, I did the usual mental gymnastics to try to determine what day of the week this would have been under the old calendar. On the new calendar, there is only Today, Tomorrow, and Yesterday, but I like to be old school and still go by the former designations for every twenty-four hour period.
Luckily, yesterday was Easter, so it was easy to calculate that today would have been designated as Monday during the Time When We Could Go Outside.
As I snuggled under the warm covers, I debated as to whether I should get up and begin yet another Pandemic Groundhog Day.
Then I actually said out loud, even though Cali the kitty was the only one around to hear it: Is it safer under the covers?
After all, the world outside of the covers has not been at all appealing as of late.
My only trips outside have been for isolated runs, or to sit on my porch to read. I’ve found an empty parking lot two blocks from The House on the Hill, and I run laps there in the morning. No one ever approaches the lot, so I’m practicing proper social distancing.
The outside world has a virus, blizzard, and power outages. Today’s forecast is for a powerful windstorm that might knock out the power again.
The world was always a little off putting to me, a veteran introvert, but now I think the word that best describes it is “intimidating“. I’ve gotten to the point now where I fear that once life goes “back to normal”, I’ll discover that my instincts will be to retreat even deeper into my bunker. I think I might actually be scared to go outside again.
I’m not talking about going full Miss Havisham on the world, but I might continue to shop when the store is empty. I might seek out isolated paths for my runs, rather than returning to the popular path along the river. Weekends in will become essential, rather than a choice. I don’t know if I’ll never shake another hand, or attend a large gathering.
Last night, I woke up in a panic and got out of bed to search my room because I had the nightmare in which someone was watching me sleep.
It was only about an hour after I’d gone to bed, and it left me so freaked out that I had much difficulty getting back to sleep.
I’m so paranoid that I’ll develop Coronavirus symptoms while I’m asleep, that when I wake up in the middle of the night, I immediately swallow to check for a sore throat.
So I honestly don’t know at this point if it’s safer under the covers.
I guess I’ll just have to take it day by day, and see what the world reveals. Hopefully, this is all just a symptom of being cooped up in the house for so long while a pandemic ravages the planet. You know, justified paranoia and panic.
Do you find yourself wondering if it’s just better to stay in bed and have someone wake you when it’s safe to go outside again?
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